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i'll hold ya hand tight...

salaam all.

today, in the morning i was greeted my a piece of not too good news.

his father passed on. his mentor. his pillar of his success in life. his educator. his imam.

"awak. ayah dah meninggal" that was the text that was received this morning. i picked up the courage to give him a call. cos momentarily.. my mind flashed back to an event of my past.. when momma went.. one subuh..

my heart wrenched. i was very much affected. cos i could feel how he's feeling rite then. i felt that loss before.

only yesterday, i advised him on 'preparing for the worst'. i felt heavy to put dwn the phone with him ysterday. the line snapped off, unknowingly.

thinking that his batt died on him.. i just texted him goodnite.

i woke up at about 2am in the morning, having a heavy heart.. and so i woke up, went to khidmat diri and prayed. i did my hajat prayers for him. for his well being. and for his dad's speedy recovery too.

i texted him, "I woke up a few mins ago.. Done up my wudhu' and solat sunnah. I logged on to see if you've read my msgs. Tuff luck. I'm worried laarh awak.. Awak kat mana :'("

i didnt had a good nite.. i woke up for subuh. even with a heavier heart.. he didnt texted me. no notes for me. no missed calls. nothing.

i prepared for work. logged on to work system. while i was drafting an email..

i got that fateful text. i said my prayers for the demise of his ayah.

His voice was jaded when i got thru his mobile. Obviously lost. Almost definitely.

One of my text to him.. "You love ayah rite? Then have him as a pillar for ya success in da future. He has paved da way for you.. U have to continue his journey. Da only diff is only he's not here physically"

Heads up, lurved one.

Ayah went, leaving his legacy to you. You're a grown up man. Execute it like a man. For you're worthy of that.

Pls be strong. I'll be beside you. I'll hold your hand.

Alfatihah untuk ayah anda..