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salaam all...

i wrote this when i was finding myself falling asleep after lunch today.. *gasps*

al maklum laar.. calendar dah sampai november.. and sampainyer november and disember nie.. org2 melayu mengambil kesempatan untuk melangsungkan walimatul urus anak2 mereka kan?

so far i've got like four weddings to attend for now.. and one of those is my paternal cousins...

nak cakap stress.. stress jugak..*not cos gue yang nak nikah.. but cos to be in that position yang orang akan tanya bila gue nyer turn*

nak react with sacarsm.. orang2 lanjut usia nie senstip laar pulak.. tak pepasal aku kena chop sign anggek semacam.. cam laar jambu sangat... kan kan kan?

nak react ngan baik.. i dun understand why they ask.. so simple as it is.. i would say.. doakan laar saya ehh makcik.. moga2 Allah tu mendengar doa anda.. and just smile... the smile that says a thousand words..

so back to the story morning glory.. so am i single by chance or by choice?

i would say choice...i'm speaking for myself... not for anyone else.. *cos nanti ada laah pulak cakap yang aku nie memburukkan nama orang lain.. when i treat my blog as my own avenue of meluahkan perasaan aku yang dalam lubuk hatiku ini or apa2 yang tersirat di mindaku*

so i'd take this chance not to hurt anyone.. or make you people feel that i've not measured myself nuff to talk or mengaibkan orang lain kat sinie ehhh..

(disclaimer : whateva thats written or thought is MY thoughts.. which i've not asked for any of your opinions or just ANTYHING in particular.. so pls spare yourself the effort kay)

and so.. i'm single by choice...

i choose not to put myself into any relationships as i am nt ready for one as what i've gone thru previously..

you know when you grow older by age, you are supposed to mature too..hopefully..

experiences make you learn... to be cekal and steadfast in your decision making..

sometimes i still flaw and fumble in life.. i tell you.. for i'm only human..

at this point of time. i'm lookin up for an imam. someone who'd imamkan my solat bila ada kesempatan.. and to guide me if i'm weak in the brains.. duniawi or ukhrawi...

why i say we need to choose our partners is cos.. for eg.

if you've been dating a freeloader, you'd choose someone that is not rite?

if you've been dating a playa, would you go out with another?

we move towards the goodness in life. not backwards to be stuck in the rut isnt it?

so thats the nikah part...

rite about now, i've got friends/cousin who are signing the separation papers.

talaq's dropped. ugly ordeal. irresponsibilities surfaced. kiddos strewn all over. custodies fought after. 3rd parties no less..

so now, i'm so stuck doin this. just as when as i thought i should search hard nuff.. i'm taken aback by things that are happenin to them.

if i thought that my prev break up was bad.. i cant imagine goin thru their ordeal. the life that you've shared. the kids that you have as one are gone.. dwn by talaq no 1..

so now. very the confused.. or perhaps.. i'm the one who's playin mind games with myself.. ekekekeke.

or perhaps it was just me who is still finding all the right reasons to answer those makcik2 laser?

so shawal was rite… for wateva that he's wrote... people nowadays go into relationships without even understanding it..

talk's cheap in the market rite now.. let alone the I LOVE YOUs… satu kati.. seposen agaknyer market price..

so I'm kinda glad laar to see myself single for now.. least i'm out without... "Where are you? Who are you with? Guys? Girls? What time are you heading home?" *Pheeew*

I can book my coach/airplane tixes without asking anyone except for the darling OL man @ home..

Or perhaps I should search harder for my Imam?

I'll leave it all up to HIM. For HE's ever Knowledgeable and ever Loving on HIS slaves.

For in HIS Grace, all happens.. for if HE Wills I'll get hitched…

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